Halo, Spm

Halo, Spm

u are coming, and I will come too

I will work hard, try my best

Using Jesus almighty name

to defeat you!!

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So,

I will sacrifice my internet time

to study

first of all,

I will cut down the time to play computer

to 30-45 minutes a day

(include blog and facebook)

but not including listening to songs

becoz I used to do calculations and write essay when I listening to songs

next,

I will sacrifice my study time

at least 1 subject a day

I will focus on science subjects

especially Biology and Chemistry

but for this trial exam, I will work harder on physics and add math

bcoz of some reasons

after that,

I will increase time to read Bible and pray with all my heart!

bcoz I know I need God to be with me

in all the journey

no matter what

Jesus, I need you

without You, I cant do anything

so

please fill my heart with your love

Spm is coming

am I ready?

I dunno

but I will start to prepare myself

:)

God bless...

As we walk our path of life,
We meet people everyday.
Most are simply met by chance.
But, some are sent our way.

These become special friends
Whose bond we can't explain;
The ones who understand us
And share our joy and pain.

Their love contains no boundaries.
So, even we are apart.
Their presence enhances us
With a warmth felt in the heart.

This love becomes a passageway,
When even the miles disappear.
And so, these friends, God sends our way,
Remain forever near.

http://www.indianchild.com/best_friend_poems.htm

Erase

I named this post as "Erase" because this post I'm going to share who and wat am I going to ERASE from my life!

First of all,

The first person I wanted to erase is C boy

he was my good friend before

we tuition together

we do projects together

we discuss stuff together

but all these can only keep in my memories

because everything change since this year april

I am very dissapointed in him

I have nothing to talk to him anymore

From now onward,

he is only my normal friend in class

if possible... I will not talk to him at all

why am I so cruel?

there is another secret reason...

and I know this decision is a good decision...

:)

if you ask me, are you sure that you willing to do that?

I can answer you

From the bottom of my heart

I don't want that

but for his own good, for another boy own good

I think I deserve it!

another boy that I plan to erase from my life is Z boy

for this case

there is a girl who support me

because this boy always tease me

and he doesn't appreciate what I've did to him

from giving answers in exam, to lending him notes, then helping him

but what he did is scolding me and sarcastic me

my friend ask me why I can tahan him for this whole year

but I just speechless

so I plan to less talk to him

good for me and him I guess

these are the people that I plan to erase from my life

don't worry

I won't kill them

I will only avoid them from my sight and their sight

I know I shouldn't do this because this year is final year

we should appreciate the friendships

but if they don't wish to respect me what for I wan to treat them so well

since they don't expect me to respect them

I think if I treat them like a very very very normal friend,

is very kind enough...

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There is one thing that I wan to erase from my life

heart of rebel

I declare this in my blog

those who read this will be the witness

I dun wanna be rebeler anymore

this is a bad thing

I have to, no...

I must!

I must delete this from my life

next time whenever I wan to do wrong thing

I pray that God will remind me of this post

and His grace

so that this can stop me from making sins

thank you

:)

-the end of the post-

Hey Jude

I face so many relationship problems this year...

I don't know why...

Is't my problem? or their problems?

start from Jan,

I am quite close with E boy

and then some funny misunderstanding

then argued

Until Feb and March,

I having cold fight with Y boy

I was choosing whether I should stop our friendship or continue

that was a terrible and sadful moments

All these we had overcame

and this helped us to built a stronger foundation of friendship

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From April,

until now~

I having fight with C boy

another boy

he is a bit different from the other 2

because these fight occurred because of a lot of things

and misunderstanding

I don't want to list it out

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Recently

I a bit cannot tahan another boy

is ZZ boy

I dun understand he like to zat me and scold me without any reasons

he deleted me

blocked me

he took away my lrt card (June he took, now only he return)

he took my physics notes form4 chapter1

he took my sejarah nota form 5

I gave him answers in exam

last year he was a new student

but he didn't hav much friends

so I thought I have to take the responsibility to friend with him

so and now we had become good friend

but he like to emo in front of me

my friend ask me why I can tahan him like that

I didn't say anything

now he started to tease me

but if he see this

I would like to tell him this:

If you want to continue being like this, I also cannot say anything. but... I am so wonder, why I want to explained to yenthung that u didn't cheat for ur sejarah intervensi marks. I wonder why I want to say your good things to choon tik so that you won't be fired by lenbaga pengawas. I wonder why I want to book you a place and letting my friend, gih peng to sit other place when I forgot to book for you.... if you don't appreciate what your true friend did for you, then I won't treat u as a true friend as well...

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is't all my problems?

I should repent to God

for what I had did

sometimes

I really don't know what's wrong with me

I'm so confuse

so...

pls do let me know if I really wrong

thanks...